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Monday, February 28, 2005

oh what fun

I left work about 5 mins before he did and I drive to my doctors office where I parked and locked up my car. He picked me up and we went to the next town along the river to a cabin. He said it wa his grandfather's. We spent the whole day there having sex and just having fun. He took me to my car and I made it home right on time. We are planning on meeting there next weekbut I only have one more day of vaction time so I won't be able to do this much more.

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Work is fun

We are both floating on clouds. We have made a plan to take half a day tomorrow. He says he has a surprise place for us to go. I can't wait.

Monday, February 21, 2005

Yes it happened

We went to the party and drank a few and tried to stay away from each other as much as we could but every time I looked up he was looking at me. We would smile at each other then move away. Finally most everyone had left and we found our selves sitting at the bar with a barstool between us. Finally after the last guy we knew left he got up and went to the bathroom then took the seat next to me when he came back. We stayed there slowly drinking one drink and taking like we normally do in a flirty way. We were enjoying each other's company.

The bartender came around and said it was closing time so we both got up and headed toward the door. He held the door for me and we walked together but I did not go to my car. He open the door of his Siberian truck and I got in. He got in to drive and I slid over to be close to him. We parked in a dark wooded area near a canal and he kept the truck running and the radio on softly. We talked a bit then he leaned in for a kiss. That was it the gates were open and we went at each other like magnets.

It was so romantic and very satisfying. We made love for hours. We had climbed into the backseat and made love in every position. The windows were very streamed up and we had no cloths on. We were not cold even though it was cold outside.

Finally we got dressed and got back in the front seat. He drove me back to my car and we kissed and kissed goodbye. I went home and laid on the couch the rest of the night. The next morning my husband got up and laughed at me and asked how the party went. He figured I got pretty drunk so I let him think that. I told him I had fun but got sick so I stayed on the couch to be closer to the bathroom. He made me breakfast/ I lay around the rest of the weekend reliving that night.

Do I feel guilty? No I should but instead I feel great.

Friday, February 18, 2005

The possibilities

I am very attracted to him and I do not know how to stop this. I do love my husband and I don't want to cheat on him but I am afraid something will happen if I let it. I know he is attracted to me as he tells me often. He tells me how beautiful I am and how I turn him on. We talk everyday cause we work together. His desk is only about 5 feet from mine. We both get our work done but find plenty of time to flirt. We email each other sweet flirty emails all the time.

I should let you know he is married also and I have met his wife. This would be harder if she was a sweet person but she is not. She has mental problems and sees a doctor for it. She is on lots of medicines for her personality problems. I feel bad for him cause he is such a nice guy and so good looking too.

Tonight the whole office is going to a local bar to have a party for one of the girls who is leaving us. We both know this is when something will or won't happen. I will try to be a good girl tonight but I am very excited about the possibilities also.

Thursday, February 03, 2005

letter to him

I have dicided to use this blog to write letters that I will never deliver.

Hello (insert his name)

How have you been? I have been doing ok. Being married is ok but sometimes I am not sure I like it. The sex with him is nothing like it was with you. I do miss that sometimes. I will still put pizza on the grill like you did. And I even have him liking it that way. I do it not just for the unique taste but to remember you. I will take a bite and smile. He thinks the smile is because I like my pizza grilled like that but the smile is for you. I do like grilled pizza don't get me wrong I have loved it since the 1st time you made it for me.

I also miss going to your house and sleeping in your bed. I miss the way you use to wait on me. You would even wash me in the shower. You would make sure I was squeaky clean all over and then lick me dry. Or so you would say but the licking never made me dry I would just get wetter.

Well time to go home to my husbnad.

I miss you often.

Love,
Me